Chapter sixteen-(Fated#1)

Today I learnt that failure is not the opposite of success but part of it, you just have to keep trying.

Some Minutes Later
Kian parked in front of my house and stepped down from his car and I did the same then he walked me to my front door and we stood there staring at each other.
“Do you want to come in”I asked holding the door opened.
“Yes” he answered
“So let’s study in my room ” I said feeling awkward.
“Okay, is your mom not around”
“she is at her work place”
“It seems as if she is always busy”
“Yes her work keeps her busy” I said walking up the stairs.
“What about your dad” Kian asked making me to pause.
“i don’t know,he was never part of my life” I replied looking nonchalant.
“Don’t you miss him don’t you feel lonely”
I shrugged since I did not know the appropriate answer for that question.
“You can sit on the bed am going to freshen up”
“okay” Kian answered looking around the room and smiling.
“what?” I asked wanting to know what was amusing him .
“ I was thinking your room would be girly but strangely it not .”
“I love it like this ive never been one for pink and purple I guess”.
“you must love white alot since almost everything in the room is white ranging from the color of your room to your bed covers the only thing blace is that vase on your vanity table and your reading desk.
“I love white ”I said to him smiling as I walked across him to my en-suite bathroom.
After a while I came out to find Kian napping which was sight to behold and I couldn’t stop my feet as it carried me to sit on the bed beside Kian. I stared at his face with much emotion, I really did not know what was happening to me and it was all because of him Kian, I wanted to hug him, love him and do so many things with him.

My feelings for him were just too confusing and I did not know what to do about it. I only met Kian of recent and all of a sudden am interested in him , maybe he has something to do with my dreams .
“lunar” Kian called out hoarsely
“uhmm” I muttered feeling confused as he called out another person’s name.
“krystarr” Kian called out once again hugging me. It was as if time had stop for the both of us and I just couldn’t believe what was happening,my brain froze and all I could think about was Kian hands on my waist , his hot breath on my neck.

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Chapter Fifteen – ( Fated#1)

The next day Kian picked me up from my house thankfully my mom wasn’t around as her work demanded most of her time, when we got to school he held my hands as we walked down the hallway which made people to look at us , I was so shy and excited since it was the first time I was dating someone, I felt excited but kept asking myself if we were dating and also what my feelings towards Kian was and his towards me . Everything was just too confusing, it all happened very fast. Last night I could not sleep very well because i kept thinking about that man and what he said about crescent planet , it was just so annoying and confusing and Kian is not saying anything about the matter.

“krystarr, we have the same class this morning” Kian voice pulled me out from whatever I was thinking of.

“Oh okay ” I answered absentmindedly

“ so let’s go in” Kian said pointing at the classroom and laughing.

“Okay ” I said blushing and running into the class.

“cute”

On my way to my locker I saw luke waving at me so I waved back since I was still glowing in happiness.

“krystarr how are you doing”

“I’m fine and you”

“I’m good so I heard rumors about you and kian”

“Oh” I answered feeling surprised

“Is it true” luke asked tugging his hair.

“I don’t know” I said confusedly

“Sorry I have something to do” I said running to the restroom without seeing the expression on Luke’s face.

“Bitch”

Well I did say the truth,I don’t know what’s going on between me and Kian, he hasn’t asked me out or anything.

“Krystarr wait up, can I drop you off at home and can we also finalize on the project.”
“Yes” hooray I screamed in my head doing a little happy dance when I realize we were going to be alone at my home not as if we hadn’t been together but now we recognize the feelings between us.
“krystarr are you okay ”kian asked with a worried face shaking me gently.
“Am fine”
“okay, let’s go”He said taking my bag from me.
“No need ” I said trying to take the bag away from him but I received no answer as he walked outside the school.

POEM: ALONE 2

The cold wind
Blows on my face
Standing in this deserted island called earth

I call out for help
But no one seems to hear me
I try to move away from this cold place but I find myself unable to move

I feel so cold
I can't breathe
My hands seeks out for warmth
But no one sees me
My hands seeks out for love
But no one sees me
In this cold world where all I want to do is escape

The cold wind accompanied me
As I find solace in it
I walked around the mountain
With each step I take
My heart gets a little bit frozen

I see a little flower
In the mountains
Standing alone in this cold world
Looking radiant and beautiful
Just maybe
I can survive in this cold world
Just like the little flower

POEM: ALONE

The shattering cold,
Clattering of teeth
As you fold yourself into a corner to remain unseen

The hole in your heart
Increases by the moments
The gnawing pain
Keeps you calm and awake

Everytime you try to close your eyes
The scurry of rats keeps you wide awake
In this lonely world
Where all you want to do is close your eyes and find peace
But the sounds keeps you sane and alive unknowingly.

Chapter Fifteen – Fated (Fated#1)

Stay Gold – BTS

The next day Kian picked me up from my house thankfully my mom wasn’t around as her work demanded most of her time, when we got to school he held my hands as we walked down the hallway which made people to look at us , I was so shy and excited since it was the first time I was dating someone, I felt excited but kept asking myself if we were dating and also what my feelings towards Kian was and his towards me . Everything was just too confusing, it all happened very fast. Last night I could not sleep very well because i kept thinking about that man and what he said about crescent planet , it was just so annoying and confusing and Kian is not saying anything about the matter.

“krystarr, we have the same class this morning” Kian voice pulled me out from whatever I was thinking of.

“Oh okay ” I answered absentmindedly

“ so let’s go in” Kian said pointing at the classroom and laughing.

“Okay ” I said blushing and running into the class.

“cute”

On my way to my locker I saw luke waving at me so I waved back since I was still glowing in happiness.

“krystarr how are you doing”

“I’m fine and you”

“I’m good so I heard rumors about you and kian”

“Oh” I answered feeling surprised

“Is it true” luke asked tugging his hair.

“I don’t know” I said confusedly

“Sorry I have something to do” I said running to the restroom without seeing the expression on Luke’s face.

“Bitch”

Well I did say the truth,I don’t know what’s going on between me and Kian, he hasn’t asked me out or anything.

“Krystarr wait up, can I drop you off at home and can we also finalize on the project.”
“Yes” hooray I screamed in my head doing a little happy dance when I realize we were going to be alone at my home not as if we hadn’t been together but now we recognize the feelings between us.
“krystarr are you okay ”kian asked with a worried face shaking me gently.
“Am fine”
“okay, let’s go”He said taking my bag from me.
“No need ” I said trying to take the bag away from him but I received no answer as he walked outside the school.

Chapter Fourteen – Fated(Fated#1)

“Am sorry I failed to protect you”

“What do you mean ” I asked looking up at Kian.

“Nothing just forget it ”

“Okay” I said seeing how agitated he was . “But I want you to promise me something ”

“what”He asked releasing me from his hug and I instantly felt the heat loss from his body.

“That you won’t keep on ignoring me”

Smiling softly “I won’t ignore krystarr Scott anymore” He promised.

“But why were you ignoring me ” I asked but all I got was him shaking his head as if asking me to stop probing.

“How did you find me and where are we”I asked

“we are at the back of the museum and I just knew that you were here”Kian answered looking away from me

“Okay ” I said even though i did not believe him.

“come on let’s go home”Kian said dragging me away from there but my mind was still thinking and asking questions which I could not answer.
The ride home was silent , too silent, as we both had our mind on other things but one thing that kept me on a state of contact excitement and nervousness was that Kian was holding my hands with one hand and driving with the other.

“Am switching on the radio” I said shyly

Kian looked at me smiling which made me to blush harder. Anne Marie came on 2002 singing from the radio I turned up the volume to sing along with her ,which gave me intense joy. Kian joined me singing softly which made me to smile wider . It seems as if the trip wasn’t too bad it would have been better if that accident did not take place but I refuse to think about it. Shaking my head to clear all irrelevant thoughts.

MOTIVATION: THAT’S THE SPIRIT

I don't want to hold myself back
I want to become the best
But the thing is am too lazy
Am too lazy to apply myself.

Yes you,
You standing there lamenting
You standing there looking pitiful
Why do you sit still?
Why can't you get up and walk
If you can't walk then run
And if you can't run then crawl
Keep on moving until you reach your goal.

When I was about to create my blog and post my novels, I was nervous and scared(truthfully) but I felt that if I did not try I would never find out if I was good and if I never try I would never know what I did wrong. Of course alot of people would say shit about you but the main purpose is achieving your goals or trying to achieve it.

Don’t give a damn to the world because it would always have something to say .

Poem: Mother and Child

POET: J. OMA

So I’ve been messing around with this poem since am feeling a little bit tired of novels which is scary for a novel addict like me. Anyway this poem is for my mom and also all mothers around the world.

In the womb,
You nurtured me, feed me
And brought me into this world.

At One,
I waddled,cried and disturbed you
You stood by me when I took my first step
When I ate my first food
You were the one that fed me
You're all I have.

At Eight,
Now walking
You took care of me
I can't fathom what my life will be without you in it

At Sixteen,
My eyes cleared
That life is not a bed of roses
You showed me how to live in this world

Presently,
I have learnt a lot from you
I want to be just like you
A beautiful,stong, hardworking,caring,loving,sweet,wise and a virtuous woman
You are my role model
I love you so much
Mama.

P.s I don’t know about you guys but to me my mom is the most important person in this world and till today she is my number one supporter and adviser. I really don’t know what I would do without her and am grateful 😍😍😍.

Chapter Ten – Fated(Fated#1)

Some minutes later I was still standing outside my door staring densely at the sky.

“Did you really enjoy his company so much that you are now mesmerized” A voice said beside me

“Hey” I screamed clutching my chest . Turning to the sound of the voice

“You…..” I pointed at him

“What are you doing here”I said gaping at Kian

“Stay away from him”

“Who … , Do you mean luke”

“Can’t you see the danger surrounding him”

“What do you mean”

“Just stay away from him” Kian siad shoving his hands through his hair.

“Why give me a reason .”

“Stay away from him ” He said one more time walking away like a grip reaper it gave me chills.

Why does he want me to stay away from Luke what is his reason. He can’t just say something like that and walk away ,it only made me more curious, Maybe I should sneak around and find out what is going on between both of them, I thought entering into the house.